A Blog about family, motherhood, love, faith, struggles, triumphs & infertility with a side of IVF.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Nobel Peace Prize for Inventor of IVF
"Robert Edwards and Patrick Steptoe introduced human in vitro fertilization with the birth of the world’s first IVF baby, Louise Brown in 1978. In the ensuing 3+ decades an estimated 4 million IVF births have brought tremendous joy to their blessed parent and hope to millions of other infertile individuals and couples.
The granting of a Nobel Prize to the remaining survivor of the Steptoe-Edwards team, although having come late, is nevertheless highly laudable. I can tell you from personal experience that Patrick Steptoe never believed that he and his partner, Robert Edwards, would ever be recognized by the medical fraternity for the pioneering work they had done.
My mind goes back to an evening in the latter part of the 80’s when my wife, Charlene and I had dinner with Patrick Steptoe at the Carnelian Room ( a beautiful restaurant atop the Bank of America building in San Franciso) on the very last day he spent in the United States. Dr Steptoe had been attending an American Society for Reproductive Medicine (ASRM) congress in the Bay Area. Towards the end of the evening, he broke the news to us that he had advanced prostate cancer and that he would probably never see us again. He went on to express disappointment at what he called the stifling bureaucracy and the political infighting inherent in our field, which had denied him and Dr. Robert Edwards due recognition for their work. He was convinced that they were destined to be overlooked for a long time. I remember telling him that this would not prevail and that ultimately and inevitably he and Dr. Edwards would be recognized for their pioneering work in the IVF field. He insisted that this would not be during either of their lifetimes. We drove him back to his hotel and watched sadly as he waved good bye from the wheelchair in which he was being transported from our car, back into the hotel.
The reason for this story is to highlight the significance of the great honor that has finally been bestowed on the remaining member of the team, Robert Edwards, now 85 years of age and in poor health. It is certainly well deserved, but indeed, long overdue. I can imagine Dr. Steptoe looking down and smiling on this.
What can I add about Robert Edwards that has not already been said? He is a brilliant and honest scientist without whom the advent of human IVF might well have been set back by a few decades. Dr. Edwards can be regarded as the elder statesman of the field. His innovations, guidance and wisdom are legendary. Every time he delivers a keynote address at a medical conference you can hear a pin drop. There is always something new that he has to offer, suggest and contribute. Above all, Robert Edwards is a gentleman and a mentor to many. I recall visiting him at his home in England some time back and discussing some of my own ideas with him. You could just feel that you were in the presence of greatness. And his advice which was always direct and relevant, was invariably delivered gently and in good taste. To this day, I am always uplifted by his presence and his wisdom.
I find it tragic that after more than 30 years and all the IVF babies that now grace our world, there should still be a quarrel between the Roman Catholic church and our discipline. Surely the time has come to start rethinking the premise upon which the prejudice was based and to bury the hatchet. If intent to do good is a hallmark of piety then both Drs. Steptoe and Edwards will receive the ultimate reward. After all, there are at least 4 million humans that have resulted from IVF, many of whom are of the Catholic persuasion, and all of whom are no less precious than any other of God’s creations."
Thank to those men for inventing IVF so that my husband and I have a chance at having a baby of our own!!!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Fertile Thoughts
This time around I am 100% focused on my goal- which is to be the healthiest I can possibly be before we do IVF to increase our chances of success! It's not just about weight loss it's about living healthy. I have changed my way of thinking about food, exercise and taking care of myself. I have changed my eating habits, sleeping habits, thinking habits and increased my exercise level. I am committed to only drinking water, cutting out meat, junk food of any kind and thinking organic all the way! From Shampoo to Food it is all natural! It is very hard to fix one thing for my family for dinner and watch them eat it while eat a protein packed salad! BUT as long as I keep it yummy I know I will be fine with it!
I am amazed at the results. For the first week I felt like I was literally going to starve to death but after the first week my body has adjusted to smaller portions, healthier food and a new way of living! We have 35 days until I leave for Vegas and I plan to lose 10 more pounds...at this rate I am thinking it will be more! I truly have never felt better! I am keeping focused on my goal with fertile thoughts at the forefront!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
"HE slash SHE"
Oh geez, I had to laugh out loud. Not only at the "he slash she" verbiage but also at the fact that the kids are already thinking about he slash she. Dax is constantly saying things like "I can't wait to be the oldest of 3 and mentor of 2" and Mady "I hope you have a girl, I want a sister"then she will retract and say "Never mind I don't want to share my shopping budget with another girl" same for Dax with the brother, he wants a "little buddy"!
The fact that my kids will be older siblings makes me even more excited about the possibility of having a baby. They will be such great role models and love he slash she so much! I can't wait to add another awesome kiddo to my bunch, especially a BRYANT one!
Honestly, what I wanted to reply to the he slash she comment was that, "Don't worry he slash she will have a good time getting into all your things in your bedrooms while you are gone!". Oh the days I remember when my younger siblings would do the same to me! BUT I don't to diminish their hopes of the perfect sibling trio so I will keep those thoughts to myself!
Ultimately I cannot wait until he slash she is a reality for our family and I am sure he slash she will miss it's older siblings every other weekend but it won't be lonely- it will have LOTS of LOVE!
Friday, October 1, 2010
The "WHAT IFS"
Now my favorite WHAT IF question so far has been "What if you have twins?" Well...let's explore this little WHAT IF!!! Yes, if we have two healthy embryos we will transfer TWO! So the possibly is real and a little scary!
If we have twins- I will most likely lose my mind a time or two, never get any sleep, money will be tight and I will quite possibly want to cry my eyes out on a daily for quite a while but at the end of the day I will be wholeheartedly thankful that God blessed Dustin and I with not only one but two precious babies that I know we will be awesome parents to!
I love my hubby, he is an awesome father to my children and loves them like his own. He is my rock in everything I do, struggle with or ponder. I know that IF we have twins my hubby will be by my side helping me along the way in every possible way! Just knowing that I have him makes that WHAT IF seem not so scary! AND I know that his rock solid awesome family, especially my mother in law, will help me tremendously!
So this WHAT IF is settled...I will be blessed either way and thankful no matter what!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Not Looking Back
When I was young it was so easy for me to get pregnant. Each time was not planned and I had no clue what a miracle it was until I had each one of my children. I was so blessed to be fertile and did not even realize it at the time. Young and dumb I suppose. I used to live in regret and the "If I could just go back and change things" syndrome. But I have totally moved on from those thoughts and stand in peace with everything. I am where I am supposed to be, with who I am meant to be with and going through the journey chosen for me.
I truly believe we all go through certain struggles or triumphs in our life for a purpose. A lot of times that purpose is so that we can share our story and maybe just maybe help someone else who might be going through the same thing. I felt this way when I survived a domestic violence and I feel the same now with my IVF Journey. I totally feel called to reach out to other women who are going through the same thing. I know there are so many women out there who were in abusive marriages and for that reason chose to have a tubal ligation. Now years down the road, after escaping domestic violence, a lot of women, find good men (like I did) and want to have children with the man they love.
Many times it feels hopeless. Not many people can afford IVF or a Tubal Reversal and the journey is tedious and can take a toll on your health- mentally and physically. But the dream of having a baby with someone you love and bringing a child into a healthy loving marriage is always at the forefront of your mind. My advice is to NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! Always always stay focused on your dreams and set goals to reach your dream! Never once did I say to myself "this is impossible, this will never happen, or I give up!". If we have to do a second round of IVF- we will do what must be done and keep moving forward...never looking back!
So for all you women out there who are dealing with infertility whether it be because of a Tubal Ligation or some other issues I just have to say to you "DO NOT GIVE UP". Pray, stay faithful and always always keep a positive attitude about your situation. If it God's will He will provide a way for your hopes, dreams and wishes.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Where HE Guides....HE Provides...again and again...
Hubby and I have sacrificed in many ways to get to this point in our journey. We have sold our camper (which we loved), sold our SUV (which I loved) and put family vacations on the back burner. Instead of putting money towards building our dream home we are putting that off for now and investing in a baby! I always refer back to Suze Orman's motto: "PEOPLE BEFORE THINGS" and I know that financially I am where I need to be.
I just have to say that God has been so good to us throughout this entire process. I found out yesterday that 70% of our medication would be paid for through an AWESOME program called Compassionate Care. They are sponsored by the maker of most fertility meds MDSerono. I found the information online through some of the fertility discussion boards and thought it would be a perfect for us. We met the requirements and are so overjoyed that were approved! Some of our financial burden has been lifted and I am so thankful that I called the number and filled out the app! I have God to thank for guiding me and always always taking care of us in so many ways! I am truly humbled! The Meds will be at my RE doctor's clinic tomorrow and they will overnight them to me Friday. Praise God!
If you are looking into your First round of IVF please give them a call and see if you qualify. 1-866-LETSTRY. It's worth looking into!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
The Can't Hurt Might Help Syndrome
1- I need to exercise at least 30 minutes EVERYDAY.
2- I need to STOP using cosmetics, shampoo, conditioner, lotion or anything topical that IS NOT natural and has any sort of chemicals in it!
3- I need to eat all organic foods. No junk- chips, sugar filled foods, pop, no fast food, etc.
4- I need to eat plenty of leafy greens everyday.
5- STOP storing food in anything plastic.
6- STOP using the microwave for anything food related.
7- Drink only osmosis water (Dasani Water is safe per my research).
8- Use only environmentally friendly household cleaners, soaps and detergents.
9- STOP eating cheese or anything with Caffeine.
10- INCREASE my intake of Fatty Acids and Alkaline foods.
AND I am going to add my own secret to this list:
11- PRAY and BE HAPPY!!!
In reality all of these things should be EVERYDAY living for all of us to ensure a long healthy life! But as our fast paced busy life consumes us this is not always a convenient way to live! BUT for the next 40 days I am committed to be completely and totally the most healthy person on this planet!
Monday, September 27, 2010
I Believe
I love this! SIRM's new Theme Song! So inspirational for all the couple who have, will, are battling infertility! Keep believing!
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Obedience and Trust
Throughout our IVF journey I find myself struggling with trust and obedience. One day I am confident and secure in trusting in God's will either way this thing goes and the next day I am worried and a mess about "WHAT IFS??"...."What if no eggs fertilize?", "What if I get sick and we can't do the transfer or retrieval", "What if the eggs don't grow", "What if they implant but the eggs don't stick?", "What if they stick but I have a miscarriage"....and my FAVORITE "What if my plane or hubby's plane crashes to or from Vegas?".
I mean really, how many WHAT IFS can one person come up with? And believe me- that was the SHORT LIST!
Thankfully, I am always reminded to trust and be obedient and stop the MADNESS! God is in control here, not me, not my hubby and not the doctors (not 100% anyway). This is God's deal and I am just thankful that the hubby and I are finally in the financial position to do this thing and embark on this journey that we have been anticipating and hoping for, for nearly 3 years.
I end my day humbled once again, full of hope, peace, promise, prayers and focused on trusting and being obedient and knowing if it is God's will for the hubby and I to have a baby then it will be...
To all my prayer warrior peeps out there- I know there are many- please start today- saying a little prayer for us throughout this process. God is in control and I will do my best absolute to stop the What Ifs and walk in His will and His promise EVERYDAY!
Love love to you all!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Needles, Injections, Hormones, Stimulation, Viagra, Vaginal Suppositories? Yikes!
Dexamethasone 0.75 mg Tablet or Prednisone 10 mg
A lovely STEROID tablet (Gotta love Steroids). This little pill is going to help fight off inflammation or my body's need to fight off the embryo thinking it is a foreign invader of my body!
- Potential side effects are insomnia, increase in appetite and bloating. (these 3 together sound a little scary!)
Lupron (Leuprolide Acetate)
This is wonderful drug suppresses my "Pituitary Hormones" What are these you might ask? Stuff like the adrenal and thyroid. Even though my Ovaries are connected to the pituitary hormones my Ovaries will NOT be suppressed...Whew! Relief! This is another lovely stomach shot- yay me! We get to use "insulin syringes"
- The most common side effect is hot flashes, this will be relieved by the start of your hormone medication (i.e., E2V or Gonal-F or Follistim (Hot Flashes sound like I'm going to get a preview into menopause- good practice I shall never forget!)
E2V = Estradiol Valerate = Delestrogen
Basically a shot in the "buttocks" that gets my Stimulators primed and ready for Stimulation. Women who have had a hysterectomy take this for hormone supplements. I am going to venture to say that this medication is ONE of the meds that will probably make me feel like hormonal crazy mess! When I Googled It the med is described a Hormone Replacement Therapy.Folic Acid 1mg tablet
This is one medication that I actually knew the functionality and have taken before as all pregnant women or trying to conceive women should! It prevents Spina Bifida.
SDF (Viagra) Suppositories (Let's Get the Party Started)
- Given to increase blood flow to endometrial lining
- Take vaginally 4 times daily (Really?!?!)
- No side effects, except possible vaginal irritation from so many suppositories. (No side effects? Irritation in the HooHaw is a big side effect in my opinion).
Terbutaline 5 mg Tablets
- Given to relax the uterine muscle which will allow more blood flow through the uterine vessels
- Starts with SDF suppositories. (I had to look this up- this is a suppository that goes in your HooHaw- I was hoping I was done with this part at the Viagra- guess not!)
- One tablet three times a day
- You will experience the side effects of nervousness, shakiness and a racing heart! If your heart rate is over 120 beats per minute, please skip a dose
- Your body will adjust to the Terbutaline in 2-5 days and you will no longer experience the side effects
Gonal F / Follistim
From what I have read this is the BIG DADDY in the stimulation meds. This is the medication that kicks your follices into overdrive and helps your woman business produce LOTS of EGGS! Yay for Eggs- we love Eggs!Luveris
So what is exactly is a "pure Lutenizing Hormone"? Well I Googled It (imagine that). Here's what I got: A hormone used to support Follicle Stimulating Hormone (FSH) therapy.It is always taken with Gonal F. So basically it is a booster for stimulation! Got it! Don't forget the Important Warning: Contact your healthcare professional immediately if you experience severe pain or bloating in the stomach or pelvic area, severe upset stomach, vomiting and / or weight gain.
Progesterone in oil
This syringe and gauge process is enough to make my head spin! Use the 1 1/2 " this or that and 3ccs of this or that...I am confused- are you?Injections sites
Intramuscular injection sites- this looks painful...all I'm saying!
Subcutaneous Injection Site (use upper thigh or lower abdomen)- never had a shot in the abs before this should be interesting since mine are obviously covered by layers of stretched marked skin! This should be fun!
So my fellow readers- what do you think of all this, as I like to call craziness, JICK JACK? It's amazing what medications can do to our body and how doctor can manipulate my entire reproductive system to make a baby! I feel like a science experiment! But a good one!